Foundations I love in this world!

 if you think I will try and capture one by one pic of those foundations, NOOOOOO....

tiring me a lot, plus my face could irritate for many times of remove the foundation on my face, so Please just making me reviewing me these instead of proof of the pictures, because I couldn't do that. That's tiring me!

Anyway,

I might been away for moment and here I am! Not dying or dissappear in Madagascar kidnapped by King Julien. Many of people wish for me to show my real skin no foundation and here it is!

Wiped it before capture the picture hehe :3

Little background of the foundation, I use foundations for years already and at age 13 I have my own. Because at age 4,they did makeup on me for special occasion so it's not count as the time of me start to use my own makeup. But yes,they did makeup for special occasions and when I was a kid. I was a pretty kid.. 

This is the fact,disagree? Fuck you. 

For many times changing my foundations,here nice and best lists of your makeup base . Most of these are new ♡

I am not sure if your country has this brands,don't blame me!

Barenbliss 2 in 1 (Foundation and Concealer)

Bought this moment ago at Tiktok and feeling so happy now I don't really need to think hard for owning concealer. Because 2 in 1 can help me to get the foundation and the concealer.

Why do I need concealer?

Well I need it to cover the blemishes.

Pro : easy to bring anywhere I want

Contra : Concealer amount too small, make it balance please!

8.0/10

Left : Foundatioon Right : Concealer

Mother Of Pearl

A Gemini always knows how to create amazing things as this brand. MOP or we could call it Mother Of Pearl! Bought this with travel size!

My first love caught by this foundation,wheb I tried this foundation without any base, THIS IS AWESOME AND LOVE HOW IT STAYS ON MY FACE.  Once at the store I told I couldn't afford it but the travel size is awesome!!!! Awesome  ane Awesome!

Inside of this package are 4! Primer,Foundation,Concealer and SUPER GOOD LOOSE POWDER. I adore the loose powder so much!

Quite cute for a RP. 3××.××× 

11/10

Ultima II

So bought this one because I think I need to have this one for my clients. I BELIEVE THIS FOUNDATION GONNA HELP MY CARRIER RAISED. 

I haven't try it yet so I can't value thjs ♡ 

I promise you I will Room tour when it's done ♡

Hello.. at the moment I am waiting for first layer of this wall dry with the spinning fan to make it faster drying. Because when you apply in semi wet or wet walls for second layers, it'll totally ruin the whole paint. So, I make sure dor first layer to perfectly dry, apply it again and tidy up the lines with sort of paper tape that satisfy a lot when you take it off the wall after the lining section.

Why don't you pay someone to paint it?

First of all, I can do it. 

Second, I am not as rich as you think.

Third, I saving up my money for makeup and beauty purpose, plus sometimes I need like nailart equipments,yes I own small nail studio. You are welcome to visit and do the nail treatments.

Anyway, 

I KNOW. I will judged by my mom because I pick such a childish color. But i want this room have like the magical effect. I mean,the colors remind me of Odette or Rapunzel Barbie which colorize my childhood in early 2000s, I watched so many of Barbie was aired on Indosiar every weekend and Iove the pastel so bad!!!

So I promise you guys when the renovation done. I WILL POST EVERYTHING I CAN POST.

Please do not think I neglect my blog anymore after many times of lack to blog. Yes I am busy with renovate my studio and my room so I make people come here feel comfortable so bad ♡

See you soon!

We are no longer friends..

The more I older,the more I need to reduce the people from my life for the difference view. Now I realize I don't need to make another people happy and I become the one that hurted for make them happy.

So,

I had an ex friend, for the first time I feel like she needs friend but later on for the new friend she left me and well time to grow up and think about myself. 

I don't want write her name on this site but I will telling you I've been seeing worst things around her but I am always kept my mouth shut. But today I have myself disappointed and very very sad because she done something that hurt me a lot when I need support system she gave me worst result I'd rather never tell anything about my feeling now.

Started for me to chat her for my feeling on having my mom as someone that make me feel like I am in hell. I wish I never have something I have now. Because mentally, I am disturbed and I need someone to HEAR ME. NOT ADVICING ME. I just need a listener but ended up she replied some shits that hurting my feeling and it is the beginning of I won't come to her anymore.

Because I think she just wasting my time and making me hate people more.

SHE HAS BEHAVIOR THAT she will away when she find a boyfriend and keep herself busy with her boyfriend.  Once, I went to a mall with her and I didn't know that time she and the boyfriend were having problem and he came to pick her. SHE ASKED ME GO HOME WITH MOTORCYCLE MYSELF. From the first she said need company to go to the mall. And THIS MALL WAS SO FAR AWAY FROM MY HOUSE.

She always glorified her boyfriend(s) and will forget about me,but when they left, she will crazily ask anyone to hate her ex and she definitely will ask me to block the ex. When I am never having problem with her ex. Like she's only thinking about boyfriend and obsessed with them. She will forget me instantly but she will beg to cry for someone who treat her like shit.

Well.. I am no longer friend with this person. Because instead of getting peace in my heart,I am started to think she needs me when she break up with someone. 

Now I am brave enough to push people away from my life and make new friends. I am open for good people, please don't make me as someone you think I can only be you friend when you have bad feelings only.

Please, Stop Terroring me!

The story of Rick hasn't end yet. ARGHHHH... GOSH PLEASE!!! WHY'S THIS SO COMPLICATED TO UNFRIEND SOMEONE WHI DESERVE THAT BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY ANNOYING ME!!!! ALSO, I KNOW HE FOLLOWING MY BLOG. Because for many months I put my blog link into my account of Instagram.

Also I feel he's attempting to get access to my Instagram because 3 days ago or so, I woke up with 2 notifications in my phone. 

First notifications of my Instagram told me that someone from the US tried to get the access of my Instagram and it located in his hometown. Cannot tell the country side name because many of people could know who Rick is..

Plus my phone received an access code and Thank God I declined them. And make sure my Instagram won't get hacked by someone I believe it's Rick.  Why? 

One day,years ago..

He videocalled me and he told me that he was hacking something like ticketing to meet celebrity he adored. TO BE HONEST.. 

I am seeking for a help from someone that understand a lot about social media and how to not making it hacked. I love privacy I keep in some social medias, and if it's leaked. I WILL FEEL IT IS A SHIT IN MY LIFE. What happened between us already gone and forever will stop,Rick.. Grow up! You're living in Indonesia now = I am not feeling secure.

Anyway..

Let's wishing if it is not Rick, because the more I ignore him,the more I get my social media unsecured. After I block him, many of things happened. 

You might say I am made up this story, but what will you do if your life fills with terror(s) after you pick to unfriend someone or tried to giving the distance with someone but you get terrors after that. 

This is what I feel this time, I wish for Rick to stop doing anything possibly making me feel not secure. And if one day my social media hacked, you must be know who the one who doing that. Because now I am trying hard as I can do to make everything secure.

Anyway..

I bought cool tone eyeshadow from KKV-Online store on Tiktok and I received and learning again about where cool tone color match for, I mean the skintone.

I mostly use the warm color for my eyeshadow purposely for making an illusion of big-eyes I always want to have. As you know,I love big eye makeup and Japanese makeup is an inspire for me.

Everytime I think about Japan, I remember Pink is such an amazing color for Japanese styles. Would be happy one day for myself to arrange everything around me colored pink and purple. But pink match every skintone well!

This is my cool pallette of eyeshadow and this color is amazing but not suit for big eyes makeup. This cool tone eyeshadow will giving you smaller eyes and most of Asian doesn't like it.

My birth name is Della and when first time I saw the brand name is Shedella like year ago, I am obsessed to know more about the Shedella makeup. But you know I am not wealthy enough so..  i have another chance for buy another Shedella Eyeshadow with a year of gap time. 

Shedella is one of brands produced/manufactured in China. Chinese makeup always be the coolest, one day if I have chance to own makeup brand. I will pick the China manufacture to create my own because you can get EVERYTHING in China.

This palette has nice ice cream charms tape on the palette, like it so bad even everything written in the palette mostly Chinese I don't know how to read..

When the case opened, pretty colors comes out and I FUCKIN LOVE IT SO BAD. The fusion of light glittery blue and yellow eyeshadow remind myself as this is the another version vibes of Starry night by Van Gogh.

I haven't touch it yet! So.. I cannot tell how good or not this tray. But....

Look the gradient color!!!!! Cannot wait to show you guys. This palette fill with 8 colors of cool tones!

The truth..

Since many years of my life, I am always be the problem in this house. Is it because I'm a troublemaker? No.

They did me nasty.

At this moment I really want to tell whole of my readers how I feel, after years of become a victim of my family. Not my uncles/auties but brothers and my mom.

I know my mom is a good person but also she has good way of betraying her only daughter. You can call me a bad daughter for this truth and anything I write. Sometimes I just need writing down my feelings after that I will absolutely feel better. Coz during this time of I am working on my blog. I hate my brothers and my mom, let's just say I just hate the way they treat me.

Yes I graduated from best university and all people wish me for having a good job at the office at least but years of trying. And 2 jobs I had. My mom never satisfied. She always telling to whole family that I am not working yet and in front of my face. It's hurting me a lot. Never try to decline what she said because she has very old school mind which think working in non office = no job.  But she always tell everyone I have no job. But what about my nail studios and makeup freelance job?? 

She never care. And I am so hurted by brothers too. In my life where I see every daughter will treated nicely and of course new stuffs to wear or use.

I definitely treated so bad during my university starts.. 

Let's say that time I started how to become away from family and I feel that is awesome when I had my life more free and nothing can make me feel bad.

New clothes for university? No. I EVEN ASKED FOR NEW CLOTHES TO MY MARRIED COUSIN. She had many clothes I wear to my uni. That time my mom always telling me she has no money and that happened all the time I asked new clothes because I say I need pair new one to at least match my university's students at my uni.

I been bullied for clothes I wore,but I didn't care because my uni has typical of covered clothes where I was a girl who has short skirts but it is still ok because under the knees. I believe everytime someone tries to not care of what another one say, she/he will get mentally abused. The difference just can or can't you pass this.

Well for 2 years of my university life I am okay with my old university clothes. Then my dad took me to buy new clothes on my birthday. Also he bought me new phone that time. That was the first time I had 2 or 3 new clothes and jeans.

During the time of my mother she say she doesn't have a money,she secretly saved the money for my brother. He wanted to be someone who needs to pay a lot for the career. Can't tell what is this job. But this one is the one who paid more than 400 millions rupiah to finish it. But ended up with he gave up and went to the rich and borjuis university.

During his time of starting university,he was only need zoom meeting and still paid very much. 3x of my uni payments.

But one time I saw that my mom gave money for him to buy new clothes. And of course I feel hurted. I was begging clothes to my cousin but later on.. I saw he has chance to buy new clothes. And my mom say it's his own money. Oh.. what a liar! He just a mama boy,which the mother treat him as a king and I hurted a lot for what my mom did for years of my life.

Not stop by that,

When I was in uni.. I tried my best to never asking anything that charge her a lot. Yes I went to university with Art and Design faculty.

Art stuffs are expensive and I well known as someone who borrowing friend's stuffs. Such a shame but that is my way to suffering things around. I wasn't able to buy stuffs. 

You might think I had my first laptop when i started my uni. Haha..  you wish. I had it new because my old laptop broken already and it was belong to my brother. I have 2 brothers anyway. Let's call him A and B for the latest brother.

I never had something new other than begging from part of family I have. I always keep calm for that but FUCEK.. FUCEK AND FUCEK..

A and B always got new one. And since I see how my parents treat me and them.. they're spoiled boy. And because I understand I will never treated as them. And this treatment making me love to thrift the clothes because I only can buy the cheap clothes by money I own. Because I am the only one who spent money a lot of repairing and adding needed stuffs to this household . 

I can't tell more of what happened in my life, sometimes I must keep it as secret. And if you guys think I am okay. I think I am okay but my environment is not.

If you say be a good girl so they like you,you wish. When I try to be good. They will push me and treat me like an animal. This is hurtf fact about me.

I just feel today I should tell the world I am not okay atm.

attempting to be a Douyin soon (?)

 as many of you guys know that I am so in love with thick makeup and I adopt many of way of do makeup. I believed I follow Gyaru cute look but always ended up looking like I am mixed. 

many of uni friends told me I am not Kawaii when I posted a video of me attemting the Japanese signature makeup of Gyaru, they told me I have non-asian facial figure. shit.. WHAT ABOUT MY EYES? IT FUCKING HOODED SO WHENEVER I PUT EYELINER AND OPEN THE EYES, IT IS NORMAL FOR ME IF THE LIDS OR EYE LINE DISAPPEAR OR FOLDED BY MY OWN EYELIDS. 

now I am already a MUA as my freelance job, my phone even related only to makeup or nailart (I do nails also) , but not a big surprise when I am looking at how gyaru girls making the look of innocent looking with pastel colors. I know I am an Asian with Autumn Season which match pink so bad, BUT I LOVE PURPLE MORE. so I make this blog pink, and hoping one day going to have my signature color to be purle. as you know I have my bedcover and lot of daily stuffs in purple colors! but it means, for years I have using wrong color,but because I love the color, so I put it on everything.

anyway, I purple you ya... 

Today I have chance for having a pair of colored contact lenses which people on Tiktok believe it is the color for Douyin, to be honest when I saw for the first time douyin makeup and many reels of they do the challange, like recorded of they zpplying makeup while they walk to tranportations or anywhere I don't know.

but ended up like a fairy looking Asian  or the Chinese figures of perfect looking of animated human. but of course never trust what you see online, it's edited and I've seen many unedited Douyin makeup.

remember, skin has textures. so it is just like a thick makeup with mostly reddish looking or drunk makeup, sometime I feel like Asians makeup mostly when it is done, it will giving ivory/ pinkish looking.

I bought color contact lens from Tiktok, it was 500000(Aud 50) for 4 boxes and  colors. but this one is the cutest and I feel like so anime.

the lenses name is Mystic Eyes in color Twilight Wolf Grey. 

well, thank you for seeing me in Douyin looking (I know I haven't fully douyin looking with the makeup) . this is grey when you put it on the darkest brown eyes, but brown when it's un-applied.

I will learn more about douyin. and giving you all updates :)

I dreamed of Bill Kaulitz was my husband and we have a daughter

Before you judge me, this is not a hallucination. It is dream I had and every dream I remember always relate with what I saw before going to sleep.

So, the guy name Bill Kaulitz, the Singer of Tokio hotel. I Like him and his feminine side which I believe if we were in real life we can share the makeup and skincare together. Hehe..

Last videos I watched was Tom and Bill , but later on I slept with my phone I did not care if its locked or not.

What I remember was yesterday I slept and in my dream I was in a king size bed and the blanket colored like leopard fur synthetic but felt soft, this dream is realistic dream I had and I remember.

So..

This blond haired guy came to the room with kimono and I know him. It's Bill Kaulitz and dream is a dream. You cannot control, at least you have power to do that. But what I remember he hold a kid that in my dream says she's my daughter and her age is 3 but very spoiled with her dad.

In the dream I even stand next to him and I know I am only 149cm and he's european which I did not know the height but just googling he's 192. Damn. 

Later the nanny came and took the daughter out of bedroom. I was still standing next to him and he was so tall in my dream. Like i am same height as his nipples area. In that dream i even asked like

"How do we fuck and have a daughter? You tall as hell" then.. he said

"By inserted my cock to you? It's legal because we married " I LAUGH A LOT in the dream.

Then I wokeup like spontaneous and see the clock it's  2 in afternoon already.. 

WHAT THE DREAM. This dream was the funniest and realistic dream I had in my life.

While I write this his answer haunting me and make me laugh a lot. Omg..

Bill,if you read this because you randomly see this entry. Thank you for read something weird as my dream. I blame the Tiktok because I watched you there so I dreamed weird dream as this hahahaha...