Schewwpidd..

I never want to be a cyberbully, but what I am doing now as self defense. Where it is call equal since this person start the fire so he suffocate in my smoke from the fire he made . 

Recently I deleted all accounts from dating apps I own years ago and I just able to do it now because I think this is the time to reduce or erase all my wild past. 

But an app showed this message from a random guy. 

An old message, yes it's old but words he told toward me still making me so upset. How can a "man" Saying this to someone with un-edited pictures on her chatting apps she owned? Anyway, none of my pictures in chatting apps I edit, I am not catfish. Yes I do edit on blog, instagram and any social medias I own. Except for sort of dating apps. I am not showing any pictures I edit. 

Anyway.. REAL GUY.. How can you proud to post something like your profile picture? I am not going to zoom it , crop it because I want to make people see who started it first? You the one that greet me with those schewpidhhhh commitment you told toward me by message. 

Anyway I might wrong, you are handsome.. You are so clean, everyone can see from the beauty of your hair, baby beard hair start to grow so fresh very cutesy very demure.. 

The glass hanging on your nose bridge so beautiful.. 

Oh my God look how Real he is! So real.. From more than quarter of the earth know him as the truthful handsome picture he uses.

Can I endorse you with hair product of lice killer chemicals? Because I think it's suit on you. Since you're a real person and I am fake, so maybe clients will more believe in you to advertise anti-Lice shampoo. 

Ah fuck it's night and I need to rest. Bye

Y2K Theme soon

Surprised that my theme so disgusting ? I think the same too.. 

But now I want to tell you that I am working on the theme about Y2K and sort of Korean's idol photocard edit by K-pop fans. At this moment I am working with manually edit by Canva and I am sorry I'm dull and when I operate the Figma . I am sooo sooooo sooooo stupid. 

Recently I get to know that Figma needs sort of payment. Ah.. Shit~

Well see you later when my edit works well ;) 

Softlens Review : Haru Hana Contact Lenses

(Unsponsored - Self Review ) 

Morning has been done and I know after I write this blog I shall do my ironing. I am gonna do some ironing because the helper that came every satday decided to not coming again so.. I must doing some chores until my house has another worker. 

So, apparently.. 

My strong addict to collecting lenses giving me such a headache to remember the name the size and others. So to remember back what I wore I am giving you guys this entry with "Contact lenses" labeled also to make me easier to remember what I wore back then. 

Now let us giving our moment for this contact lenses which all the time comes to my Tiktok's explore. This contact lenses super cheap but they promised this one really comfortable to use on daily without feeling eyes easy to dry. The water consistency not high so.. Lenses won't absorb natural eye's water that body system use to moist eyeballs. 

First time I saw the price , makes me to buy all 5 pairs and impulsively wore in same week just for taking pics of those lenses. I'll give you some infos for the contacts I wore recently it's Haruhana from Spex Symbol. 

Made by polyhema, which known as good material for making soft lenses. Suit for dry eyes. 

Momo 

(Brown & Grey) 

Brown : Plano (normal eyes)-6.00 without step 0.25

Grey : Plano (normal eyes) -3.00 without step 0.25

With 15mm and 38% Water content for 6 months using . Both are cute but different vibes, widen your eyes with soft ring as the outline and boom! Brown is for the calming cute but the greyish (blue) gives the mysterious sexy one. I just realized my (while ago) tanned skin suit with both of these type. FYI, my motorcycle is done and it makes me to rid motorcycle at noon and burn my skin easier. Well, hello.. This is Indonesia the tropical country~

Sakura

(Grey & Brown) 

Grey : Plano (Normal Eyes) -6.00 (without step 0.25) 

Plano (Normal Eyes) -3.00 (without step 0.25) 

Extremely like the Sakura Grey, now I am the meme of Queen Never Cry baby with Starry eyes.

Really love how this make my eyes look wide and vibing an antagonist person which can make everyone follow my rules like I am the Queen. BWAHAHAHAH...  

For the brown, I wore in same moment for capture the look, it giving ma more calming looking. But both are great and Stay for hours without make eyes feel dry. 

Sakura Grey.. 

(Will Update soon) keep waiting babyyy~ 

 

Angel Have Pink Hair (?)

Sadly I'm just a mermaid in human form. Lol. 

recently on the Tiktok I listened to this word say "Angel Have Pink Hair" Yooooo.. I know I used to have pink magenta hair but.. NOW I WANT PURPLE 🟣. LIKE TARO PURPLE HAIR!!! 

I've tried many time to find the right purple but my heart goes to this kinda purple hair shades. 

Back when I was in my teenage era purple hair I adore was on Katy's purplish blue hair. First saw the MV of Wide Awake. It took my heart !!!! 

Sadly no cheap hair colorant I can buy with shade of hers. Only the shocking purple which I think resemblance with brinjal. Big no. 

As if you are forgot her hair.. This is her hair on the MV. 

This color brighten her up. I guess some of people Born with naturally blond have powers when they dyed their hair to be darker. Like Billie and Katy, both born with blond hair, dark bring them best look. 

Hmm.. 

At this moment my hair has purple in the ends and I think I want to take off the extension so I can dye my hair fully purple with such a soft pastel purple like this pic I found on Pinterest. 

Would be suit to my Douyin look I adore!! 

Dunno if it's wig or not.. 

This is color I hope could be on my head later! 

Hope my hair will be okay with crazy hair stuff I would done on my head! 

I AM PART OF HIS LIFE OR WHAT EH?

Yesterday I went to Jakarta for a job, I am doing makeup artist assistant job for filling my leisure. Went with team from Bandung to Jakarta. 

Without knowing whose family I will do the makeup. Because leader invited me to join and leader also don't know about my background. So it isn't planned that I took this job without knowing who the couple is.. 

Long story short, I arrived to the hotel and the room let's say number 1,where me and my makeup artist leader do the makeup for the family members of the couple who allegedly do the wedding on Saturday 16 of Nov. 

Firstly, 

Talked to the first lady I did her makeup and well.. Knew some information that she is related to my cousin as her high school friend. So I started to be quite and not talking much things to her in case that she'll tell my cousin things, such a small world that I didn't understand. 

While done the makeup, at room 2,across the room 1,which slightly I can see from room 1 it's a bit open so I can see through a bit there's another makeup artist who did the makeup. I haven't see the bride but in room 1 I see someone slept on the bed which I really curious like.. 

I was a spontaneous person at uni, now I need to be more behave to make people around me feel safe and comfortable to talk to me. Still, Bright Jeremiah is spontaneous person but she a bit behave now.. 

The guys sometimes awake and I worked with my face covered with mask to avoid my breath might reach clients' face which is uncomfortable. I don't say I have sting smelly breath. But breathing in front of someone's face who isn't close with us is weird yet disgusting. 

Slightly I look at the groom and thinking like MAY LONG LONG TIME AGO, I did something to him that made me sure he's having something with me in the past. But working made me focused to the clients. This guy tried to talk to me and of course could be because my face has vitiligo which make people easy to remember me even I covered my face with the mask, my forehead visibly shown the vitiligo. 

While I did the makeup of the Groom's sister (which I knew from her facial features that look similar to the Groom) , I asked many questions for make her enjoy and feel comfortable. But, 

Felt so strange for the Groom's act while I did the makeup. Feel sooooo weird and why I began to be asking close much things to his sister about the family's background. 

4 people done later after did the makeup completely, and I have leisure a bit to rest but the groom talked to me like he knew me but I didn't really care much. 

Until.. 

I saw the Bride, I don't know her at all.

and my mind started to thinking Damn, WHO IS THIS GUY? I am 100% sure we met before and I might made something to him. 

Speaking of love story, HE NEVER BE MY LOVE ONE. But.. 

After all curiosity and rememberance back like all of sudden after I went back home.. 

I found out

The Groom and I went to same university and we went to the same organization , different major but same year of the class of this organization. 

Years ago, 

I have my friend (same major) , let's name her Lottie, to save her name and misunderstood would happen for future. Lottie and I were close in the class of organization at uni. 

Once I feel so weird with the way of the guy, name him Jake. So I spontaneously and with so much joy always mumbling and annoying Lottie with some of love matching

"Aww love birds.. "

"Hey Mrs. Jack"  And many many love matching words for Lottie. I wasn't really care what happened behind my annoying jokes. 

UNTIL... 

I began to ask Lottie on WhatsApp because no chance to meet her even Lottie now still in Bandung, what was the name of the guy I match her without any reason because I was just such an annoying brat. She didn't mention his name . I hold Jack's name but didn't tell Lottie first the name because wasn't sure if it's the guy I was jokingly match with Lottie. Used to forget that moment for while during my lot of business on my brain  and short ability of remembering. 

Without mentioning his name, Lottie sent me picture of him and WELLLLLLL... Turned out She confessing about one THING I NEVER KNEW. 

After some joke match thing I did, BOTH BEGAN TO DATE secretly without me knowing it. FUCK. I AM A MATCH MAKER? LOL. 

So.. Valid, they both dated after the jokes and sadly from the relationship didn't work because of the family problem which I am sure it's from the groom . 

Now it make sense why the groom stare at me a while and talked to me like we've talked before. Well.. Everything now answered!!!! 

From the Joke to Dated and now Lottie and Jack separate then he married the bride. I am someone who made this love story and at the wedding day I CAME TO JACK'S WEDDING WITH CONNECTION AS MEMBER OF HELPER OF THE WEDDING (AS THE MAKEUP ARTIST FOR THE FAMILY) . 

GOSH...  Don't understand it but WHY THE FUCK IS THIS WORLD SO SMALL? 

Now it makes sense me and Jack awkwardly feel like we've meet before. I feel like now I am the part of his love life even me and him not close at all. 

Now I am guessing that he's thinking of how small is this world too after he remember me after the wedding.. 

WELL.. unbelievable!! 

Hey you Pretty lady~

Arghhhh!!!! 

I've been waiting for many many days for this thing happen! 

Weeks of waiting and here we goes.. My new motorcycle is here.. 

After year plus, I neglect it at garage and decided to use sort of kinda Uber, huft.. Say no more to Uber! 

Hello Pixie, if you wondering who pixie is, it's my motorcycle name, she's been in my life since 2011 for good reason I lend it to my dad and now my dad passed away and well.. Also sold my black motorcycle so, Pixie is absolutely mine now!!! 

Years of owning it, thru all conditions, weather and some of mechanical problem. I think to not going to buy another new because of the memory I see on Pixie.. First matic motorcycle I chose its color because I fuckin love the purple and pink. Look so girlyyyyy~

Anyway, This is Pixie before... 

Ugly, rotten and super damaged after several times my dad had incidents, please do not misunderstood about it. My dad passed away not because incident he had. He had stroke. 

Pixie was the motorcycle I choose when my mom decided to buy one after the black, the black was non matic and used by my cousin to went to university back in years ago so.. I shared bike with my dad. 

During process, the rainy season so annoying! It raining all the time, I hate it after the repair man always giving promise it'll be done soon but sun not even giving support for painting time to be finish sooner. Fuck. I hate rain so bad since I am older, back in my childhood, rain was a free playground for me until my mother scold me badly for having all my body wet by play under the rain. 

Back to Pixie, 

It visibly she needs so much make over from the machine to the color. I don't want the white only just going to be the white.. So I asked repairman to create some effect of pinkish violet color as silk coat on the white base. If I am not wrong it called Lembayung color. As an example you can see this below example from Google 

Lembayung is name of its color between the purple and magenta which still translated to be "Purple" And include to the category of purple. 

Some of rotten parts also fixed, good job repairman! 

This is the bone of Pixie when body parts taken to be fixed. Surprised because it makes pixie look more smaller than what actually she look. 

Have you seen a naked motorcycle? So this is it.. 

Pixie also has it foam wide open after year of neglected in garage so it need to be fix also. Everything fixed !!! 

Pixie's parts during some of re-color. Needs some time for it to have best result with some chemicals I don't know what those are. Only the repairman understand it. 

Below, I show you the colorant.. 

Looks like pearly purple right? But when it's applied this is going to look white as the dominant / base color and extra coat of this silk purple

Look at those shineeeee. Make your eyes blind or not? 

Well Imma give you part 2 as the result of pixie's makeover !!! 

is this Jeffree Star?

At this moment during my leisure as this time is the cloud is spitting and my curiousity of learning more about photoshop. I mean I've use it since years ago for small edit but.. 

I want to be someone who photoshop my pics till some people hate me and accusing of catfishing. LOL. 

But now I have my 2023 photoshop with me installed, while it started to be running.. 

I always feel if I see Jeffree star on my monitor.. 

Am I the only one or at the moment I just being delusional about Jeffree actually see me from the other place,Spy me from an away place. 

But look at this nowww... 

LOOK NOW.. Those two eyes looking at me. Those skinny and long hands appear like it's actually Jeffree in disguise!!!